PoppyRow

I’ve had to be out of town for a few days for a family emergency with limited internet access at best. It’s been a bit odd, sleeping in a different hotel each night, living out of our suitcases, spending time at the hospital, and mostly waiting. I feel completely out of sync.

I’m the type of person that can be really flexible, and I feel good going with the flow. On the other hand, I tend to stay focused and get more accomplished if I stick with a routine. Once my pattern gets ripped out from underneath me for a few days, it seems so easy to let go of my previously acquired discipline. I’m not sure why I’m this way. Often, I’ll be relieved for things to “get back to normal” after a shake-up, but I won’t be ambitious about utilizing the energy it takes to get things back to normal.

We often assume that we’ll get back from vacation, or get used to the new baby, or get beyond the crisis, and easily slip back into our old routine of good habits. Perhaps it’s making art, exercising, keeping up with the laundry, or whatever. I don’t know about everyone else, but I have to struggle to keep into a routine of producing positive outcome, and if I let it go, I have to struggle right back into it. It’s better to know that in advance, though.

I would rather acknowledge my weaknesses and confront them, and figure out a way to work with them, than to ignore my weaknesses, pretend they don’t exist, or act as if I’ve overcome them. Perhaps with some things I have. But I would rather be on the lookout, keeping myself in check. Self-examination and complete honesty is a beautiful thing and will help you learn where you came from, where you’re at, and give you visions of where you’d like to be. It doesn’t happen by chance. It’s your decision!